Delusional Tacos

Our Amish fireplace came today. OH JOY! You know those Amish always make good stuff! Or is it the Germans? Oh hell.

As a child, I used to read those Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark. I mean, other kids would read Amelia Bedelia, Curious George, that kind of stuff. I enjoyed the sick and messed up stories. The most disturbing part of the books were not the disturbing stories but the disturbing images. Take these for example. http://www.scaryforkids.com/pics/stories-to-tell-01.jpg
I read those books over and over again. Until the stories seeped into my childish brain and screwed me up. Maybe that is why when asked what board game I would like to have, I picked out a oujia board.
Another book I highly enjoyed as a kid was Chicken Fried Rat. A book FULL of urban legends in kid form. Like the one about the woman putting her poodle in the microwave? Ya I loved that kind of stuff. No wonder I never got into the Harry Potter and Twilight stuff. Haha.

Ok what is my point for this post? There is none. Well, I am waiting for my iphone to arrive in the mail, whenever. BOO

It would suck to be delusional. Like there is that disease where guys think their penis is shrinking and will soon disappears. AW:(

Disecting Geeks and Nerds

What is a nerd exactly? And a geek? Are they one in the same, or are they two VERY different things, like male and female?

SO, being the awesome person I am, I decided to look both of these words up. On the one and only dictionary.com. What I got was surprising. Thought I was looking at the urbandictionary as opposed to the dictionary dictionary. . . .
Nerd: a stupid, irritating, ineffectual, or unattractive person
Uhm ouch? Ok this is quite depressing. You think they would have a more user friendly definition. And I could tell you that a lot of nerds are attractive! But that is only from the viewpoint of a slightly nerdy nerd so my viewpoint may be full of bias. Irritating? Yes, I can't say that isn't true. But still dictionary.com, you have yet to define nerd to me. Are you saying every irritating, ugly, stupid person is a nerd? And how does that even make sense?! How can a nerd be stupid?! Isnt that an oxymoron?! Oy vey.
So they actually have another definition.
Nerd: an intelligent but single-minded person obsessed with a nonsocial hobby or pursuit
Ah see, that is a better definition. Yet it completely attacks the prior definition. So WHO AM I TO BELIEVE?! Except what about the "nonsocial" part? Because I knew nerds who are only "nonsocial" with people who are not nerds, but are very amusing and entertaining with people who listen to them!

Alright, fair enough. Now what about geek?
Geek: a computer expert or enthusiast
Hmm. Ok makes sense. If I am judging people on this first definition though, it would make every computer expert a geek, and every non computer expert a . . . nongeek. But the word enthusiast allows us to make our own opinions. Because an enthusiast is not necessarily a computer expert, they just like computers, so this definition is fairly open to anyone who uses a freakin computer!
Geek: a peculiar or otherwise dislikable person, especially one who is perceived to be overly intellectual
So apparently geeks are disliked. This makes no sense. It seems that a lot of people liked geeks. Tho this fails to give me a logical definition. So basically, if you are perceived as being overly intellectual, then you must be hated by people and are therefore a geek. Considering a stupid person off the street with a 5th grade education would find me, a high school senior, overly intellectual which means Im hated by people and am therefore a geek. I don't want to be a geek if this is the thanks I receive!
Now for the best definition of them all.
Geek: a carnival performer who performs sensationally morbid or disgusting acts, as biting off the head of a live chicken
WHAT?!?!?!?! I have never heard this one before! Does anyone in the world actually know this?! Well of course not, who looks up the definition to the word geek?!!? . . . . other than me. . . Actually, this is the coolest definition of them all. This now gives me the right to slap anyone who calls me a geek and threaten the lives of their puppies and kittens! or chickens if they actually have them. . . .

So what are you hmm?! Well, if you ever get called one of the words, be sure to question the definition of the word. . . O_o

Good Morrow.

Since I want to play Skyrim but I am too lazy to actually do so, I shall post a blog. Ha. Isn't that how it always works?

I am listening to music. I like music. I like music other people don't know! Well, that is a lie. Of course SOMEONE else will know of them. A lot of other peoples. Just peoples I don't know, necessarily. Oh nevermind.

Like Promises by Nero. A more electronica dance dub step kind of song. Music video is pretty epic tho. And then I listen to Phillippe Katerine. He is French. A very very strange French man. I like strange people. So of course I would like him.

Life is pretty normal. A part of me cannot wait to get away from high school and go to college. Another part of me will miss it terribly. I love all my teachers, they are great. I am really lucky to have such great teachers. I like that Mr. Stedman can put up with me asking him questions like "what if the presidential and vice presidential candidate of a certain party die in a plane crash?!" "oh they usually fly separately" "WHAT IF THEY RUN INTO EACH OTHER?!" I really do ask a lot of questions.

BUT I hate this stupid citizenship crap our school is making us do. "do this crap" blah blah blah. I mean, I like to interact with the community, Spokane is an amazing city once you actually go out and join the community. So much to do. But this year is NOT the year, I havent done much and I doubt that I will. Like now, I should be looking up scholarships and writing essays but I do not want to. How that relates to a community, you decide.

its 11:20. boo.

TaTaTa

It's annoying when people take pictures of close up pics and they DON'T use the micro settings and they fuck up the whole photo. its very annoying.

My English teacher is so nice, inviting all us good students to her house to eat her food. She has a cute little house, full of antiques, old old ones probably worth a good load of money. But she'd never sell them! She has scrap books full of things, every graduation congratulations letter, hotel pamphlets from Germany, an envelope with Italian money, French money, Swiss money. Was all very cool. Mariah, Nick and I spent over an hour chilling downstairs watching Intervention on her huge tv. She has a cat named Katie with big green eyes and a koi pond. Mariah and I had all of our stuff from my dads trailer so we kinda looked like we were staying over haha.

Have just been watching Waterloo Road and downloading games. I want to play Sims 3 but Im too lazy to go downstairs. Poo to that.

I am looking up music. Thats about all I do on the internet. Ha what a lie. No I just like looking up music. I mostly get Swedish music. Swedish bands and singers. The music is good tho. Most of what I find is linked to soundcloud, but theres this downloader thing I use to get the song since most of the songs are from less known artists and the songs aren't available anywhere. Like the band Set Fire Run. They are more electro pop. But they are amazing! Its pretty cool liking a band that very very little people know about.

Today I got my hair dyed. A darker red. I think it looks nice. Ate a sandwich. From. . . a place! It was good!

I like to take long breaks while writing my blogs.

I just took a long break.

So I am now back in a different mood.

My mood is like the sky.

Changes so often.

The outcome is often. . . unpredictable.

Maybe, unless you give me a present! :)

Im watching Eurovision 2011 videos. I don't get it. But I would love to go to the finale because it looks really fun. Minus the strange singers. The Swedish dude is gonna be popular, according to his song. . . . ok have fun.
Jedward scares me. What the hell is that Lipstick song? Ireland, you scare me. Sincerely, scared person.
BUT if I were nominated by my country to be in a continent wide contest I would be flattered. But Eurovision? Maybe not.
Ok sorry but a big what the fuck to XFactor for even allowing "Jedward" to get through! "its not cheeky, its annoying". And of course Louis would say yes because he's Irish. And Dannii is the queen of cocky. And Cheryl also had a sucky audition to become famous and stupid Louis let her in and DING she is now a really fucking annoying singer. But "very pretty".

I think I will go watch Waterloo Road. My mind keeps wandering. :( Thanks but not thanks

An Impossible Princess?

I am so weird. So so so weird. How in the world did I end up like this? Guess that makes me an impossible princess because she's pretty fucked up herself. She flies in the ocean and swims in the skies! Hmm. . .

I wish I could marry Falco. He is amazing. And charming. And also dead. . . but thats besides the point. He is my German hunk stud man!

Today I sang. I sang in the morning. I sang a song that I find very beautiful. Not that anyone cares. But I do. I must post a link so I can remember it one day when I'm old and moldy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hf626jCdxbw
its so pretty.
so.
very.
pretty.
gives.
me.
chills.

I like pretty music. I like pop music. I like jazz music. I like rock music. I like foreign music. Not a rap fan. . . but MUSIC is what I like. Music that can make me cry. Tho many things can. . .

Hmm Ill. That is a very common feeling the last. . . 2 days. Ok hasnt been too long but I feel ill. Everyone is making me ill. My best friend Mariah has not made me ill. So the everyone statement is a shitty lie. Ugh I feel so sick even now. I only ate a few bites or breakfast. A few bites of lunch. A few bites of dinner. I even bough snacks. Don't know where they are now. Can't trust anyone it seems. Well thanks, guess you can have my snacks.

im backin up, backin up, backin up, backin up cuz my daddy taught me good. and I think maybe I should faint. . . but I dont! NO!

black hoody! white hoody!

OOHH WHY DO I NEED COFFEE NOW?!

coming down down down down

Ok wow I am sure a spaz. I got a drawing of Kate Bush in my yearbook. I did not feel ill at that point. I felt very happy.

Then I went to French instead of Choir and ate all the year two's food. It was good. Showed the teachers the Moustache video. They were amused. I seem to amuse Mrs. H. Well then I left.

HERO OF THE DAY SAVED MY LIFE SAVED MY LIFE!

that makes no sense. Anyhow, went to Prides room. Said to go to the library. Went there. She was there. Obviously. . . She said I could use her overhead to do my project so I did so. Now I have a drawing of that drowning lady. I am very happy about it. Guess I can go to college. She told me I couldn't. Now I can. That made my day. Or at least thats what she said to the man on the phone.

UGH sickness again. I remember the movie Brother Bear. Not the first time I watched it. But once I watched it Mariahs house. I was in 5th grade. She lived in a big house. Big white house with 2 stories. Full of Polly Pockets. And massaging chairs. And fried chicken. And a tree house. And a tire swing. And I remember I watched it there. Exciting huh? I miss those days. Im sure she does too. I wish I was a 5th grader. With just my cd player. And my Brother Bear soundtrack. Along with the Spirit soundtrack, Lion King soundtrack and Sound Of Music soundtrack. And Shania Twain. I liked her. I still do.

I think part of my hemostasis process has stopped working. Well, Im not bleeding. My scabs wont heal. On my leg and foot. But one of my scabs itch. Which means its still trying to heal itself.

I am being ignored. By a few people. More than that I suspect. Wonder if everythings ok. I worry too much. It would be nice if people would just answer me. Or at least say goodbye. Or something.

Id rather just fucking die. Hmm thats nice. Thats how I feel. I really would rather be dead. Fuck the future. Fuck everything. Im sick of crying. Makes my eyes poofy. Im not important to anyone. Well Im important to the people who hurt me. The people who ignore me. The people who manipulate me. The people who call me names. So getting rid of them theres no one. Just me. I like there just being me. But I don't much like myself either. Heh life really does suck

Hand to Hand Combat

The man cannot pronounce the artery! What artery you say? I do not know because he pronounced it like a 1st grader reading Moby Dick! Speaking of Moby Dick, thats a very boring book. My father read it. Well he got to chapter 100 and gave up. I read the WHOLE FUCKING THING, I think I was the only one in my class to do so. I let my AP Language teacher know this and she laughed like a hyena on speed. THAT reminds me of an essay we read that compared the TV show ER to birds on speed. WHICH reminds me of the pigeon named Calle that Scott drew in Kellsey's yearbook! (but she was a SEXY pigeon according to her name!) which reminds me of my cousin saying how horrid pigeons are but I only saw 2 in Las Vegas which reminds me of San Francisco and how I only say 1 gay couple and people thought I'd be malled by gay men which I was not. My mind likes to make awkward connections. I could write a book called "Awkward Connections of my Mind" because I'm cool like that.

SO I took my final in French. I got a 98 percent! HECK YA! I beat Emily and she is very very good at French so I did a little dance (which stretched on for a while) and let her know that I did better than her and I still expected a birthday present from her. We watched The Count Of Monte Christo in French. The AMERICAN version (but with the peoples speaking French of course cuz it IS French) and its hella different than the book. Its kinda messed up and Mercedes seems to be like the center of the whole fucking movie, or at least the start, and Dantes gets in an epic sword fight with Fernando (his name is like Ferdinand but Fernando reminds me of Lady Gaga) and he got harmed a bit and ya. THEN the teacher turned the light on and I was like AH IM BLINDED and she laughed at me and hit me in the back! Like. . . a friendly hit! I was very. . . . very. . . . flattered is the word on my tongue. Yes it is on my tongue cuz I am saying all this outloud because when I get upset, I can talk about stuff very enthusiastically and ya Im kinda upset right now but typing my day in an epic manner makes me feel blissful!

I think I am going to make this LONG and AMUSING! SO we had math as well! In which we were given 1 problem for homework and fuck it, I don't want to do it. I don't understand it. I refuse to think about sin and cos and the derivatives and the unit circle and ALGEBRA. look thats like 4 different math classes right there. Geometry, Algebra, Trig AND Calculus! I should be getting MONEY! So I wrote a story in my friend Scotts yearbook (which is fake cuz he didnt BUY ONE) about how he was throwing eggs at old people and then my math teacher decided to steal a fish and my history teacher was like COMMUNISM and the fish was saved but eaten by Scott and his lover who made my history teacher their love child. SPEAKING of Bowman (I really need to stop with the capitals), I picked a painting for my final project that is quite easy to trace so tomorrow I shall go trace it but I need to go to the store maybe. . . let me see. . . NO I DONT! I have paper! It may not be very big but its big enough for moi. Speaking of which, my length is longer than Kristen's *wink* *wink*. Good thing it was cold outside my anime friend! *wink* *wink*.

Oh wait, when I am upset Im supposed to watch the Moustache video, it makes me so happy. :) I will share it here!

Ok I am now extremely happy. I swear that video got an extra 10,000 views just because I showed it to my friend. I enjoy these silly videos so much. I enjoy French. I enjoy random silly French things. But I like French songs that are NORMAL too! this is my favourite song at the moment. and the video has sparkly camels, can't lose there!

I need to memorize this song. I have only memorized one French song. and its a song sung by like an 12 year old girl. Its so easy to memorize tho. And its like fun pop crap. Like Hannah Montana here or something. But I don't care!!! :P

Today my Anatomy teacher basically said I was messed up and I needed to join her AVID class cuz I was messed up enough. D: I took that as a compliment. :P Then she got all pissy that my counselor actually counted physics as a bio credit and my physics teacher came in and also got pissy and IT WASNT MY FAULT!!! :( Basically my teacher told me not to go to the college I was thinking about so ok whatever then! I think I just commited myself to major in Enviornmental Sciences. And I cant even spell Environmental haha oh there we go. Unless I take Bio next year. HMM unknown. Ok I must eat this food I have before me. Goodbye

I'm Holding The Kid Inside Responsible

Honey honey how you thrill me! The honey bear thingy makes me think of Abba. Actually it makes me think of Amanda Seyfried. I don't like her, her voice annoys the crap out of me. So the Abba version of the song shall stay in my head. . . except I dont know the Alba version. . . -_-

I'm listening to this unknown band called Set Fire Run. Their music is amazing. If only they would be discovered! They remind me of a few different artists. Maybe a cross between the bands One Night Only and The Hoosiers. Bands that are a little bit more known. At least the Hoosiers. Anyway, they are cool! :D

I have spent this friday night listening to new music basically. I should be doing something else. Like playing Sims 3 or working on Rosetta Stone. I will have to do that Rosetta Stone after this but Sims 3 will probably have to wait. I need to put music on my ipod! but but it's a pain in the ass! :(

Must watch Fringe soon too! Arg to much, to little time. I have been watching the show Lie To Me. I like it! The first season was very good. I also started watching Bones, something I have been wanting to do for years. Emily Deschanel is so amazing. I can't help but get hypnotized while watching her act! She is incredibly beautiful for one, I am jealous! And her character, Bones, is just very straight forward. Its funny when someone tries to make a joke or something and she will say "I don't understand what you are saying" in this totally uncaring voice. I don't know, you would have to watch the show to find out. I also love her sister Zooey. I haven't seen much of her, but she was in The Happening, which was so stupid! But the thing was, she made it a bit humourous, whether the movie was suppose to be like that or not I dont know.

Hmm wish I had something worth while to share. I am in anatomy now. Today we had to learn the body cavities and stuff. My teacher is awesome! She is so nice! And plus, tests are mostly group tests which could be pretty good. I dont know, I have never had a group test in my life. I remember I hated my 8th grade science teacher because he didnt do group tests while the other teacher did. Ha.

My hands are so cold :( Why do they always have to be cold?! Probably due to my pour diet. Today I ate some cereal, grapefruit, apple, a bit of an english muffin, a few chips, some mac and cheese and 2 pieces of cornbread. Thats a horrible diet. I guess I had some soda and coffee too! :D I tried to curl my hair with these roller things. Ugh it came out horrid. I need to scrub my hair! Hockey tonight sucks. We are losing. To Tri-City, our "enemy". :( Awell that sucks. we have 9 minutes left. . . . HAHAHA yea that was funny didnt you laugh?

Spontaneous Combustion BOOM!

I am currently eating a quite cheesy french fry. Oh crap it fell out of my mouth :( But I caught it so I can stick it back in! HA! Ok it really isnt cheesy at all. But its pretty good. The other day, my friends Mariah and Andrew went to eat at this burger place and Andrew was nice enough to let me have a fry when they came back and it was good! So today Mariah and I went and got burgers and fries. I hate burgers but it was pretty good tho I couldnt eat much of it. It has jalapenos on it :D:D:D yummyness.

Im so happy to be getting to see Kylie Minogue in concert AT LAST! Ah it will be amazing. I have dreamt about seeing her for YEARS! dreamt isnt a word. Fuck you. Anyway, yes I have had many dreams about seeing her in concert. but something always goes wrong haha. Everytime I have seen Kylie in my dream something weird happens. Well one time I got to give her a hug and I was extremely happy haha. I am also excited to get to see Las Vegas. My aunt and uncle are discussing where we should go. They know Las Vegas very well. I really want to go to Adventuredome. Indoor theme park! AH! I seriously would love that! Im a sucker for any sort of thrilling rides. No matter where I travel in my life, I hope to visit tons of water and theme parks! Abandoned ones too :)

I am also going to see CATS! I spent my money on it, I want to see it again. Mariah and I got farely good tickets so it should be fun! We are going to memorize all the songs from the show! Well first we have to get through stupid Broadway Night at our school. Im screwed, I dont know the songs and Im stressing for finals next week. OMG FINALS NEXT WEEK! Ugh kill me now! Kill me and take me to the Bahamas and drop me in the sand for a while :)

Jellicles Do and Jellicles Would

I have this great urge to see the Broadway musical Cats again. Im THIIISSSS close to buying myself a ticket. But since I can't quite yet, I have been listening to the recording of the musical. Andrew Lloyd Webber is my hero for composing a musical all about cats, staring cats, SINGING cats. Plus, this dude composed Phantom of the Opera. Who thinks of taking a French novel and creating a musical?! I don't. I have not seen Phantom of the Opera, but my mother has. Not that that is important. . . Anyway, I doubt the musical is much like the book because the movie is nothing like the book. Well, the original movie is I think. . . In the book there is an awesome torture chamber and you end up going crazy and hanging yourself. Sadly, when Hollywood created the newest Phantom version, they failed to put anything really scary in the movie it was just all romance. But who cares I freakin love the movie and I am waiting for a man to kidnap me and sing Music of the Night to me! But not Gerard Butler. I dont see why every teen girl who has seen Phantom thinks he is so hot. I do not think so. And I don't find his voice appealing, turn on the French version on the movie and all the singers are a bit better. . . Anyway, I don't think he is anywhere close to looking like the actual Phantom tho. The Phantom had no nose in the book. . . ok side tracked much?

Twilight Zone marathon on Syfy! I think they have been doing this for years. . . Yes I remember being real small and watching Twilight Zone until I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. And then one year I listened to War of the Worlds on the radio. It was 1999 going onto 2000 so I guess that is why they were playing it. I think I, Robot would of been better. Oh wait, that wasn't made yet! Wasn't that a book tho? Oh, it's loosely based on some dudes short stories. . . ok well could of been better then aliens attacking the world. Tho that movie was pretty messed up. Going back to War of the Worlds now. I remember Dakota Fanning in the movie was wearing the same shirt I had. Not on at the time, but I had it and I was like MY SHIRT! Its like the other day while watching the news they showed my insulated mug on the tv saying you aren't allowed to have them on airplanes anymore and stuff and it was MY insulated mug, it made me happy. Yea. . .

We got some snow here! A while ago. Like uhm Wednesday night? You know what, that sounds good to me. And then the weather dropped to 10 degrees. The wind made it like -10. But it was all sunny and pretty and the snow was so pretty and I had to go out and take some photos tho I would of rather not but I did :)


SOOO in other news, I went to this thing called First Night Spokane. It is basically a giant party my city throws on. I must say I really love my city. For the people who do not love the city they are in, they just havent experienced what there is to experience. I guess my city is more artsy then I ever thought. They had this thing where you get a tile and you draw a self portrait for 5 bucks. You use paint on this tile and then they are going to write everyones name on it and create this huge wall full of tiles in the mall by the movie theatre. It is a really cool idea. It was basically held by this shop where you can go in and paint pottery. I have a great urge to do so. Someone come paint pottery with me! xD I havent done that since 5th grade Art Club! There was also this place where a people come to play those crazy card games. Those fantasy ones. Like uhm. . . Magic: The Gathering. It looks difficult. . . let's just say I never learned how to play Pokemon and Yu-Gi-Oh. I liked the cards! I loved the cards! xD I traded a crap load of legos for some "rare" Yu-Gi-Oh cards when I was younger. Who the fuck knows if they are rare, probably not but they were shiny :):):)

So I stayed in a hotel last night and it was so cold in that hotel room. The window had a hole in it. No seriously, my father and I discovered it the next day haha. So I basically froze my ass off in bed as I tried to smother myself with the gazillion pillows that were on my bed. Didn't quite help. But you know what, I surivived. And I should probably head to bed since I barely slept at all last night. I sleep so shitty in hotels :( Guess that's a good thing, means I will get my ass out of bed to do whatever needs to be done! Actually, I usually fall asleep at about 10am and then I won't get up. . . *sigh* good thing I don't live in a hotel! mmmm Sugar Babies. I bought Sugar Babies, white strips and a pickle at the store. And a vanilla coke! :D:D And I spent 63 dollars on my friends. My mom was pissed at me. But its my money! I bought 2 of those plush microbe things on ThinkGeek. Gonorrhea and Sperm. Now I can tell everyone I gave my friends Gonorrhea and Sperm for Christmas :D haha! I got my friend Scott a tie with music notes on it because it looked awesome and my friend Kellsey a Trololol shirt. Haha WHY?! I was gonna get her like a My Chemical Romance shirt but they didn't seem to. . . appealing. Ok, this has gone on long enough! I wish you adieu :)